Dear (You)

Hi.

How are you doing? I hope all is well with you. I know you’re definitely going to read this. Eventually you’ll know this was for you. I don’t even know who you are. Maybe I’ve met you. Maybe I haven’t. Maybe you’ve always been in my life and I never noticed you. Maybe you never noticed me. Maybe I’ll have to make an effort on that front. Maybe I won’t. Maybe it would just happen. Maybe it won’t.

See, due to some events and realisations I’ve reached a point of uncertainty/confusion on some things and no girl deserves to be dragged through that. That’s one of the reasons I’m staying off relationships for now. I need a clearer and more directed head.

That doesn’t discredit this, though. The words would still be valid.

I like to think of you as a focused person. Someone who doesn’t have time for unnecessary things. It’s one of the things I tell myself. “She is most likely building her life now. Let me build mine.” Or maybe you aren’t right now. Doesn’t really matter. We all have different bus stops in this life.

I pray for you once in a while when I remember you. I don’t want to paint a picture of this guy who is a prayer warrior. Truth be told, sometimes (a lot of times) I don’t even remember to pray for myself, talkless of my family and friends. If prayers were a prerequisite for staying alive then I’d be dead. Or maybe the prayers of my parents are sufficing. Or one spiritually active person on the other side of the planet, I don’t know. Maybe it’s even you.

Nothing in this life is perfectly balanced. Everything takes daily effort to get to, to keep and to maintain. In that regard, I’m not going to beat my chest and say I’ll be forever faithful to you. But I do promise to work together with you and make myself accountable to you so that infidelity on my own end is not an issue. I will not deliberately mess around with your emotions like they mean nothing.

I’d be a fool if I expected you to be perfect. I’m not. I don’t care if you eat and sleep in a church. I know you’d have your demons so need to pretend. Just throwing that out in the air. I also expect you to have the intuitive knowledge that I can’t be perfect. I’m no Prince Charming. So no matter how good I look or appear don’t you dare accommodate the thought that you don’t deserve me. Or you’re not good enough. Perish the thought.

Just putting it out there that you should reach for the stars and beyond. Be you and be unapologetic about it. Don’t let anyone bring you down. Have a mind of your own. Follow your own path. You don’t need to have it all figured out. Just keep pushing. You are more than people see. You are more than people can fathom. Don’t be bound by their boxes and don’t create a box of your own. Make a habit of breaking barriers and stereotypes. But don’t stress about it. Just. Be. You.

Anyway, just saying hi. I would definitely do a longer and better version of this later. But for now I would sit and wonder what the whole point of the post was.

Just my random randomness I guess.